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must forbear, or else the past uneasiness will return,which Grace has conquered by her attractive charms,when solitary saying, I hope my precious friend hath notforgot me. When I came hither, a little money was acceptablefrom such who were disposed to watch my necessity, sofar distant as New York. Please to present my love andthanks to J. E. for his care in supplying my present ne-cessity; tell him I had not quite an half dollar, and Ihope this will be returned when he is on an errand of lovefor my Master Jesus. I have been much tried with J. T.this evening. He told me scornfully, I might do to in-struct the Indians, or Blacks; but said, As for whitepeople, they have good preachers, and enough of preach-ing from them. My answer was, I had rather teach theIndians and Africans, than white people: for their soulswere more precious to me, having suffered much for them.He then told me thus, You are on the Pinnacle, and as foryour talents they are very small, though you think muchof yourself. Why he spoke after this manner was, be-cause I faithfully let him know, he was but half a Chris-tian, although he had been a Methodist almost twentyyears. I made him no further answer, but went to mytrunk, and prepared for leaving them to-morrow, while hecontinued talking all the time, which I suppose was toprovoke me; and then he finished the day, with familyprayer. I thought his place was, to lay his had on hismouth, not daring to utter words before God, whom I amcertain will repove him for this conduct; but I pray theLong suffering Father, not to lay this sin to his charge, forthe sake of Him, who became a Sin Offering in our stead,that the folly of man might be passed over. I am boundunder new obligations to the Lord, to serve Him with myreaming strength, while a probationer in time; for HisDelivering Goodness, and Mercy, that is magnified in mypreservation thus far: knowing that by my own ability,it was not possible to pass through such complicated ex-ercises as have fallen to my lot, during this year, which